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i was again seriously interested in telling you about angel hair pilot tonight and his, well, angel hair, but tim russert died so i must now dive into that. he was probably just living his life, and then an hour later, he just wasn't. i don't have to tell you about my life changing caribbean sailing experience from last month. it's two posts down and changed my life forever. this is another life altering situation in very close proximity to the other. it sucks, but that's what happens. so, you better live like you mean it. and i mean that, sister.

so tim russert died. how does that relate to me and you. it all comes down to one minute you're living and the next, you're not. you're just not. tim had a special place in my heart. may he rest in peace.

tim's news knocked the wind out of me. my sunday mornings have been spent with tim for as along as i can remember. now what. now it all changes because life stepped in and did something it does all the time. it deals you the craziest cards when you're in a place where it's highly unlikely that you're ready for them. and from experience, most of the time, you weren't ready and there's no way you would've ever asked for them.

ok, so life stepped in on 6/13/2008. it made us uncomfortable - not only the russert family, but i would have to imagine, most of the world. but you know what? we all have a say in it.

when you die, it won't matter to you anymore. you'll be dead. however, your passing will rock the cores of many a people and for some, their lives will never be the same when you go. if nothing else in your years, this is one of the greatest realizations you should ever make. you may or may not know it, but you are touching lives. you may be doing good or you may be doing evil. you're the one who knows and either way, it's fine with me. but one day, those lives will be without you. and, hopefully you left a lasting mark on the world. if you didn't, it's unfortunate because your time on earth was relatively short-lived and it won't matter to anyone if it was for not (probably not even you while you were here).

if that doesn't make you uncomfortable, you're all set. ignore me. ignore a lot of things. if it does affect you, get off your pot and start doing what you think you need to do in life. do it for you. know that when you do it for you, the world will somehow become more rich and powerful because you made it that way while you were you living in it.

life's too short. make your footprint count. i can't believe tim russert's gone.